Opening the portal in Indigo

Last night was amazing! I was in a terrible mood and didn’t even want to take the call. That was definitely a child part of me trying to act up. If I was working through my authentic self I would not have had those same thoughts. Thankfully Arlene didn’t even ask me how I was doing, she must have been using some of her Psychic gifts and thank God she was because I had a huge long epilogue planned out so I could get out of doing the work.

            When she asked if there was a protector I knew there was on there but He was not hearing me because he was scared from the left over stuff from my past. Arlene asked if I was a ruler somewhere and had let my people down which instantly struck a chord I was crying right away. I was able to learn from this man who is now a part of me that he was pushed into ruling at a very young age around 14 and that because of that he was very fearful and ended up seeming arrogant which I know all about because I have lived most of my life in fear. Thank God today I am less fearful then I am excited for what is to come next. I dialoged with my past self whether it was me in another life time or if it was one of my ancestors I do not know but both are very possible. It was a very good feeling he had being understood. That is key we just want to be understood by someone how good that feels when you don’t feel alone. I have sense asked this soul to come and join me and work with me and the knowledge he possessed.  After her joined me we tried to open the portal of Indigo one more time and I got very fearful and started crying again. I could feel the fear in my head which was the same feeling I got when I dove into Indigo.  I was holding onto to fear (energy) from other people because that was not my fear. I went through a process of asking this energy to return to the souls of the people it was from so their souls can distribute it to them or recycle it as needed. This seems to work best for me because I don’t want to hurt anyone and I would rather hold onto the energy and hurt myself but I know their soul knows what they need and will take care of them. 

            The portal opens, I am feeling giddy, I am even laughing at how amazing this feels this entire time my eyes are closed and I am excited to see what is beyond my eyelids but fearful of any expectations I was having so I needed to drop them before I opened them.  Arlene asked me what my psychic gifts were that I could use in this lifetime. When I posed this question to myself all I got was a tingling in my hands and the word “feeling”.

            After the call I went to the living room where my family was sitting with a guest and his daughter and the entire time I felt like I was glowing and floating the smile that was on my face would never leave. The feeling has sense passed but I know it and I remember it and I will call upon it when I need it.

Relationship

Relationships are the most important thing for us to understand. Whether the relationship is with a partner, friend, or family member they all reflect back to us what our insides look like. That is why it is most important because relationships work as a mirror of our spirit. That person you love is you, that person you hate is you, we are all one so how we treat others is how we treat ourselves.

That golden rule "Treat others how you want to be treated" I believe it should also state "Treat yourself how you want to be treated" we will only let others treat us as badly as we treat ourselves if we are kind and loving toward ourselves we will not tolerate another to treat us any other way.

I want to talk about that person who you can't stand. How can he or she be a mirror of us? For me it is a guy at my 12 step group he is a control freak and is always speaking matter of factly and thinks he knows everything about the 12 steps. I am kind, considerate, a little shy but never do I act like him so how does he mirror me? Well I am controlling I just don't show it and I would really like to be able to speak my mind but I am constantly thinking about the bigger picture and how to help others so I act with tact. My point is I have a strong dislike for this guy because he does all the things that I am capable of and sometime wish to do. So one way a negative mirror reflects; they do things we deep down know we are capable of but are either scared to do them or will not do them because we know it is wrong.

This is where using the energy of color will help. Once you find the deepest reason you dislike a person just ask where this feeling is located in your body and it will show up as discomfort or just a knowing that you have stuck energy in this location. (When doing this to take your ego out of the equation always use the word "If" this tells the ego you are just playing a game and it will not interfere. "If (insert feeling or emotion) were in my body where would it be". The first thought is always correct trust your intuition. Then ask "if there were a color that could heal or dissolve this stuck energy what would it be". The same as before use the first color or if you get multiple colors use all of them. Ask the color or colors to surround the area of discomfort and dissolve it. You can see this as evaporating or just disappearing and the discomfort is taken to the universal recycling center. After you have done this take a few breaths to center your self and then check to see if the discomfort is still present. With the new energies we have coming at us this simple exercise should clear it up. But some times it is a deeper issue and you may need further assistance such as complementary color breathing or actual interaction with the discomfort to allow it to be heard so it can shift.

Well give it a try and if you need further assistance check out my facebook page or email me and we can set something up.

Thanks everyone!

Red and Green

Not only do they make for a great Christmas they are complementary colors. There are different colors in the Chakra system that work to balance and recharge other colors. Today I'm gonna talk about red and green. The root Chakra can been seen as red and is located between the lower hips and goes down through the legs. This is our connection to the earth and is associated with all things man.
Man is a doer and uses fiery energy hence the saying men are from mars.

When red is unbalanced it may result in people being controlling and very fearful. This is why complementary colors are so important. Green is the color of our heart Chakra its location speaks for itself. The heart is where we give and receive all the love the world has to offer. If our red center is unbalanced introducing green will help balance it out. Where there is love there is no fear.

This morning my partner said something to me that was very hurtful. As I lay there in bed I kept rolling it over and over, she means this, or this, or maybe that. It wasn't until I stopped thinking that I was able to find peace. Our mind is a dangerous place to be and mine ran with it, she must have meant that she didn't want to be with me and this was her way of pushing me away. I have a tendency to always assume the worst. My defense mechanism is to run I've been abandoned many many times in my life and have since started looking for signs that it is going to happen again so I can be the one to leave instead of getting hurt again. Knowing this I have more awareness of myself and I can do my best to work through it.

Fear and Security issues result from an unbalanced Red Chakra center and to balance it out I introduced green into the red center. There are a couple of ways to do this all of which involve breathing. There may be other ways as well but these are the ones I know. First and easiest is to focus below the hips and breathe in the color red and on the out breath picture the color green leaving the first Chakra this can be done until it feels right. If there is still a feeling of wrongness place your attention on the center of the chest and breathe in green and then out red this should clear anything up. The most effective way to balance the centers with complementary colors is to swirl both colors in the energy center this gets all stuck and stagnant energy moving. Check out the link below and like my page and I will give you a Complementary Color Therapy session which last for about an hour for only 20 for the first time.

After I did the color breathing this morning I was able to quiet the chaos in my mind and realize my thoughts were mainly fantasies and I was creating more of what I didn't want.

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Update

Things are going so fast over here. My partner and I are buying a house of 5 acres out in the woods. It is amazing, there is a mother in-law 1 bedroom with a loft and balcony that we will either rent out our use as a retreat spot for couples wanting to get away and also get some energy healing while they relax.
The main house is 3 bedrooms and 1700 sq feet which is a little small but very much doable. The house is wired with a generator that powers everything including the 3 car garage with attached office. There are trails in the woods for the boys and the yard is well taken care of. It is so peaceful out there. On the property there are tall evergreens who stand guard and provide us with much needed shade and serenity.
I'm getting a bunch of advertising done for my color therapy business and I am certain I will have my first official client soon =) As of right now I'm working out of the back room at Lemuria here in Yelm, Wa but I am set up with paypal to be able to take clients over the phone. Eventually I want to create a web site but for now I've just created a Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/pages/Color-Full-Therapy/455752077777568#!/pages/Color-Full-Therapy/455752077777568 .


Thank you everyone!

Daily color

Today I asked what I need to know. I asked spirit, my angels, my guides, and my healing team to be present and allow the highest and best to come through. I drew blue with a lesson which states "Speak your truth from deep within". This to me says to listen to the inner voice that ia guiding me and to allow it to use me as a channel. When truth is spoken it will always come from love and love is what energizes the world we are transitioning to. My truth knows no fear. Fear has no room in a loving heart. To speak from the heart ensures the highest and best for all involved.
Let's see what the book says about this lesson.

CREATING FROM THE SOUL-
"Deep within you is something that needs to be expressed creatively. It comes from a place that is soul deep. To deny it means that you are denying the expression of who you are and what your life is about. This denial can lead to an ache in the throat and an ache in the soul. It is time to discover what is blocking this deep desire to create".

To me this is all about fear blocking my true potential. I am not so much scared of failure but afraid of both ridicule and also of success. My truth feels so off from what the society I live in practices and preaches. If I were to express myself from the soul a lot of people would not understand me. This is a fear I will face and change. The other side of the fear is of success this is from past life feelings and also from my up bringing and society. People who were successful were always ridiculed because the people I knew and family I have were of the "have nots". They showed me that others were better off because they were keeping us down (which I know to be false) and I still have this core belief. I will let this belief go.
In my past life I was a very powerful manifester I did not create through the heart though. A major part of me is afraid to allow the use of all my power for fear I will abuse it again. If I always remind myself to create through the heart I will gain the trust of that fearful part of me.

To shift the energy of this lesson I must make a commitment to my self and spirit.
I commit to create my world from my heart allowing all the love and light of the world to shine through me.

Thanks for reading :)

There is a spiritual solution to every problem

My Partner and I have been having tough time with her 6 year old son. He has suffered a lot of trauma in his short 6 years and I completely understand why he is so angry and challenging. I do not have any kids of my own so this is all new to me.

This morning as well as most mornings he woke up cranky and fought getting up. It took a while to get him up, then it took a while to get him to put clothes on, then it took him a while to get him out the door. Reflecting now it might be better if we start a little earlier with the whole process. All that is happening really isn't about him because he is a reflection of me. so I need to do some looking inside to see where the problem lays.

He is at he point when we try to give him consequences he says I don't care. So taking any thing away does not phase him. This morning he went to school with out eating or a snack because he would not take what he had just previously asked for. I made him the sand which he wanted then he said he wasn't eating it! Oh he is such a joy and I know he is teaching me so much I just want to learn it so we can move on!

So not knowing what else to do I used what I already know about. I pulled out my color cards and asked for guidance, "What do I need to know to help my partner's son". I used the Mini color cards and they have a reverse side also. I drew a strength in Blue and a strength in Black. Both of these cards remind me of the qualities I bring into the relationship between my partner's son and I. Blue being the color of the throat energy center (Chakra) has to do with expression and more importantly expression from our inner knowing. This reminds me to stay true to my truth no matter what he is feeling or how he is acting. If I respond out of love my actions will always be centered and even if he is still upset I will be in a state of mind where I am able to handle him.

The second card I drew is a strength in black! Black reminds us of the many possibilities because black is the combination of all the colors anything is possible. Black shows us that we are always changing and growing and that the best is yet to come. Going deeper I consulted the Color card book to get a better understanding of what I could do for my partner's son. Black tells me that I myself am also learning and that being willing is a key component.

Kids are our greatest teachers! I am so blessed to have these wonderful children and my amazing partner in my life to act as Mirrors for me and help me evolve my consciousness!

Healing my spirit by breaking my bones

Wow what a ride this has been. I broke my tibia and fibula, they both snapped clean through and the tibia as fractured a second time below the knee almost all the way through. After many hours of surgery I am the proud owner of a fancy titanium rod that runs inside the tibia from knee to ankle. I also have 3 screws below the knee one holding in the rod and the other two holding the fracture together and a fourth screw in my ankle terminating the bottom of the rod.

It took me over a month to figure out what really happened when my leg snapped. I had thought the entire time that I had went up for a rebound, while playing basketball. Thinking this had happened and I just jumped and broke it when I came down really got my anxiety going because that shouldn't happen! I found out a couple weeks ago that the game was tied up and it was game point (end of game), I had the ball and drove in to attempt a lay-up. There was no room so I kept going under the basket for a reverse lay-up. Another player came running in the block my shot and collided with me resulting in me landing on the top of his foot. The snap to follow was deafening! I was wearing an ankle brace to protect my ankles from sprains so the pressure had no where to go but out the side of my leg. I did not understand that the snapping sound was my leg so I tried to walk a few steps on my leg which was dangling because both bones were broke clean through. Finally laying on the ground off the court reality set in and I began to scream! I used the famous F word many many times in the 20 or so minutes it took the ambulance to get there. I even asked some of the other players to put me down as you would a lame horse. I had told them my life was over and I was useless!

The surgery went well and the doctors took good care of me. I had not idea what recovery was going to look like. Talk about being born again. I was like an infant only with out the diapers. I was only able to get out of bed long enough use the bathroom and then crutch my way back to the dark dungeon of a room that I was staying in at my mothers house. At 29 I was back at my moms needing her to take care of me. Humbling!

Being a man raised by a step father who was born in the 50's I had a lot of great ideals like don't ask for help, don't cry, be strong, do everything yourself. These kinds of life skills which use to help men survive but only keep men isolated in the new world were creating. I have been going through a serious process of changing my belief systems but they were not changing fast enough for my body or spirit so they got together and shoved me forward either fly or fall were my options. I had accepted all the changes that came my way because of this blessing in disguise.  I had to ask people for rides if I wanted to go somewhere. I couldn't work so I have not paid my bills. I couldn't prepare my own food. I was lonely in the back room. I couldn't even get myself into the bathtub. All of these things I required the help of another. What I discovered is that there are people willing to help and not because they have to but because they love me and want to help. Friends came to my dungeon and visited me. My partner Ashley would come over and lay with me because that's all I could do. I watched a lot of TV and tried to read but I was so depressed I couldn't stay focused, not to mention all the pain medication that I was on!

Since I use to be addicted to pain pills I was frightened that I would get hooked again. But because of all the work I have done on myself I didn't need the pain pills for anything other then pain. They didn't have the same effect on me as before and for that I will be ever grateful to myself for the self seeking I've done and for my spirit that has helped me surmount my addiction.

Being able to ask for help has changed my thoughts so much I feel so much freedom knowing help is out there and I don't have to do this alone. It has not only allowed me to ask for help in the physical but also in the spiritual. I know there are Angels out there watching over me and they are just a prayer away.

I had to put a hold on my Color Therapy work because this work needed to be done before I could move forward in any aspect of my life. But having done this work I feel I am ready to move forward into my new life and this new world that we are all creating together. I will be certified and working with in a couple months! Can't wait! Maybe I can work with some of you?