Last night was amazing! I was in
a terrible mood and didn’t even want to take the call. That was definitely a
child part of me trying to act up. If I was working through my authentic self I
would not have had those same thoughts. Thankfully Arlene didn’t even ask me
how I was doing, she must have been using some of her Psychic gifts and thank
God she was because I had a huge long epilogue planned out so I could get out
of doing the work.
When
she asked if there was a protector I knew there was on there but He was not
hearing me because he was scared from the left over stuff from my past. Arlene
asked if I was a ruler somewhere and had let my people down which instantly
struck a chord I was crying right away. I was able to learn from this man who
is now a part of me that he was pushed into ruling at a very young age around
14 and that because of that he was very fearful and ended up seeming arrogant which
I know all about because I have lived most of my life in fear. Thank God today
I am less fearful then I am excited for what is to come next. I dialoged with
my past self whether it was me in another life time or if it was one of my
ancestors I do not know but both are very possible. It was a very good feeling
he had being understood. That is key we just want to be understood by someone
how good that feels when you don’t feel alone. I have sense asked this soul to
come and join me and work with me and the knowledge he possessed. After her joined me we tried to open the
portal of Indigo one more time and I got very fearful and started crying again.
I could feel the fear in my head which was the same feeling I got when I dove
into Indigo. I was holding onto to fear
(energy) from other people because that was not my fear. I went through a
process of asking this energy to return to the souls of the people it was from
so their souls can distribute it to them or recycle it as needed. This seems to
work best for me because I don’t want to hurt anyone and I would rather hold
onto the energy and hurt myself but I know their soul knows what they need and will
take care of them.
The
portal opens, I am feeling giddy, I am even laughing at how amazing this feels
this entire time my eyes are closed and I am excited to see what is beyond my
eyelids but fearful of any expectations I was having so I needed to drop them
before I opened them. Arlene asked me
what my psychic gifts were that I could use in this lifetime. When I posed this
question to myself all I got was a tingling in my hands and the word “feeling”.
After
the call I went to the living room where my family was sitting with a guest and
his daughter and the entire time I felt like I was glowing and floating the
smile that was on my face would never leave. The feeling has sense passed but I
know it and I remember it and I will call upon it when I need it.
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